Hi my name is David and I am a recovering addict and a proud mender of
Narcotics Anonymous.
Yesterday December 17th I celebrated 10 years cleaned let
me tell u all its been a hard tough road to get here. My story isn't much
different from most but I will tell it anyway for whomever has doubts that NA
works.
 First off I am 43 yrs old and grateful to be alive today. Not so in the past.
I started using drugs around 12 yrs old my big brother turned me on and i
thought it was so much fun getting stoned every day was a fricking blast i had
no worries in the world when i was under the influence and after a couple of
yrs of this way of life it started going way downhill i switched my drugs from
just smoking pot and drinking to smoking PCP and boy did i go straight to hell
from then on there wasn't a moment of a day or night that i was not wasted,
constantly falling down thinking i was Joe cool not relizing i was just a fool
in disguise.
When i turned 17 and got out of high school i think dumber than when i went in
lol, I was in pretty fair health and then one day in June of 73 , my whole
world changed  i got suddenly severely ill i had a blood clot in my leg and
one in my lung and i was put into the hospital for 14 days and it was hell
cause i couldn't get high all that time and thetas all I could think about, I
didn't care if I died the next day all I cared about was getting stoned out of
my mind so I wouldn't have to feel anything and thetas exactly what I did when
I finally got home. So yr. after yr. my health deteriorated and i just kept
plucking down cash to get high and i didn't care where i got the money whether
i stole it from my mom or robbed an old lady on the street, it didn't matter,
i thought i was invincible that i would never get caught stealingand i didn't
for a very long time, then when i was about 26 i robbed the board and care
where I was living and tried to burn it down all under the influence of PCP, I
got caught and I went to prison for 2 yrs and let me tell u I was scared
shitless the whole time I was there, I am a big man 6'5" so nobody ever
bothered me in there but I was without my drugs I was defenseless. I was like
that little child when I was growing wanting but not getting, cause we
couldn't afford it or something. You would think that t prison would scare u
straight but all i could think of when i got out was using and when i did i
did head straight for the drugs and alcohol, I forgot to mention that alcohol
was my very best friend and all it ever did for me was make me fall down,
anyway i got out of prison used drugs got caught and was sent back for a year,
except this time they sent me to a different prison because of my health
problems. Now that place was a rude awakening there were people there never
getting out of prison and have spent 20 30 yrs there, I thought to myself hey
I dot want to live like this for the rest of my life in and out of prison to
the curb and back again to jail what a hell of an existence. I start thinking
about getting my life straightened out and when I was released I went right
back to drinking and smoking pot never got back to PCP cause I know if I did I
wouldn't be sitting here right now typing this letter I would either be in
prison or dead. I used for a couple of weeks and then I told my parole officer
that I had a problem with drugs and alcohol, he said he new it and was waiting
for me to reach out and ask for help. He helped me find a recovery house so I
could learn how not to use  and teach me a better way of life, well I got
kicked out of that recovery house after 100 days clean, I was caught having
sex with another client and we were both kicked out right then. I went up to
my room and gathered a few things and left telling em all to f----k off. I dot
know what happened to me in that 100 days but after I left the place the first
thing on my mind was not using any ways , 3 weeks after leaving that place
still clean mind u I hooked up with Narcotics Anonymous and the rest ishistory.
I went to countless meetings the first 2 yrs spreading my experience strength
and hope for any body newer than I. I was jazzed about staying clean i finally
found my home a place where i could lay my hat down and sit back and
participate or listen and now i have come this far in my recovery, I have
major problems with comprehension so i chose not to sponsor any one but i am
here for one everyone today who seeks out NA and grasps hold and not lets go.
Today I am happy, joyous, and free.
My name is David M. from California and i am a grateful recovering addict and
proud to belong to Narcotics Anonymous